Don’t leave me dancing in the dark.
[original composition] hunger.
released 16 april 2012 on bandcamp.
Source: SoundCloud / sheisnoelle
#upstairsintheworkshop, new music.
Going back to old songs tucked away and trying a new take on things.
I wrote this piece in collaboration with my brother about six years ago. Rendered originally for guitar, this was one of those songs written in the deep of night, by two kids who filled two mugs with hot chocolate in spite of the humidity that can cling to this city even when summer has come and gone.
My brother is studying Law now. It’s his passion where music is mine. So when I’d begun to play around with transitioning “Testament” from strings to piano keys about a little over a month ago, I’d asked his permission if I could take this and make it what was ours into something both familiar and yet somehow still new.
I had hoped to post this sooner. A number of my friends have been struggling with loss, others with the painful task of recovering themselves. It’s difficult, navigating the mazes of grief. The things we love, after all, are sometimes also the things that render us raw.
I suppose it’s like holding light between your fingers — it illuminates, true. But it can also burn.
Testament
Music by Noelle and Nathan Pico
Lyrics by Noelle Pico
It comes down to this
When the unexpected
Is your only friend
It comes down to this
When the makeshift fences
Have all but weathered away
In the dark of the light
The shadows wait for
The dying of the sun tonight
It’s not the impressions
We leave behind
Nor the footprints that litter
The sands of time
We are here then we are gone
That’s the way thing are
The way things are, my friend
What’s left behind
We all forget eventually
But not easily
Hesitation on your behalf
Like uncertain skies come half-past June
The piercing feeling of genuine smiles
That you know won’t see tomorrow
I’m running fast but
I don’t think that
I’m getting anywhere just yet
And as we kneel to carve in stone
By two years’ time the chipped will soften
Even a little, everything does
In the dark of the light
The shadows wait for
The dying of the sun tonight
It’s not the impressions
We leave behind
Nor the footprints that litter
The sands of time
We are here then we are gone
That’s the way thing are
The way things are, my friend
What’s left behind
We all forget eventually
But not easily
It comes down to this
It comes down to this
Source: SoundCloud / sheisnoelle
Finally figured out how the embed feature works for this thing. :)
Woke up this morning to huge congratulations from friends and loved ones and feedback in spades that people really do enjoy my work.
As I just told my mom over breakfast: The generosity of people towards this release never ceases to amaze me.
And you know what? It’s only the second day.
To everyone who liked, reblogged, shared the link to the bandcamp site and the individual tracks — on your blog, on Facebook and everywhere else; for all your kind words and encouragement… THANK YOU, oh so much. I wish there was a way to let you know just how much this all means to me. —N.
Urban Faery. Photography by Clarence Baquilod.
#thisismylife Heading off for the day to join the lovely @KateEvangelista at #GNN Studios for her taping stint for Marybeth Nave’s Suit Up! where she’ll be talking about her debut novel — Taste — which will be available at a bookstore near you come May 2012.
(I’ll be out of the camera’s view — with a camera of my own ;p)
Before I head out the door, I’d like to join the numerous bloggers out there in celebrating the release of Kate’s book trailer and to share with you all the exclusive excerpt that she has given the thumbs up to post up here.
It’s pretty amazing, really, what patience and sticking to your dream can do for a person. As someone who has been waiting for this book since the very first day Kate introduced me to Phoenix McKay and the rest of the gang at Barinkoff Academy, it gives me great pleasure to share this amazing day with the rest of you.
Again, super huge congratulations, girly! I am so very, incredibly proud of you ♥♥♥
At Barinkoff Academy, there’s only one rule: no students on campus after curfew. Phoenix McKay soon finds out why when she is left behind at sunset. A group calling themselves night students threaten to taste her flesh until she is saved by a mysterious, alluring boy. With his pale skin, dark eyes, and mesmerizing voice, Demitri is both irresistible and impenetrable. He warns her to stay away from his dangerous world of flesh eaters. Unfortunately, the gorgeous and playful Luka has other plans.
When Phoenix is caught between her physical and her emotional attraction, she becomes the keeper of a deadly secret that will rock the foundations of an ancient civilization living beneath Barinkoff Academy.
Phoenix doesn’t realize until it is too late that the closer she gets to both Demitri and Luka the more she is plunging them all into a centuries old feud.
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An exclusive excerpt from Taste—
I sat up and followed Calixta’s gaze upward. I rubbed my eyes. I didn’t know what I was seeing at first. A statue? My brain refused to snap together coherent thoughts. I didn’t realize I’d fallen so close to one of the garden benches until I stared up at the boy that sat on one. He was strikingly beautiful. His tumble of blonde hair curled just above his sculpted cheekbones. He wore a silk shirt and a loosened cravat, like he’d become bored while dressing and decided to leave himself in disarray. His ivory skin and frozen position was what had me mistaking him for something carved from marble by Michelangelo. Then he sighed—a lonely, breathy proof of life. If I had to imagine what Lucifer looked like before he fell from heaven, the boy on the bench would certainly fulfill that image. My brain told me I had to look away, but I couldn’t.
“Luka,” Calixta said again, her voice unsure, almost nervous. It no longer contained the steel and bite she had threatened me with, which made me wonder who the boy was.
He leaned on his hands and crossed his legs, all the while keeping his eyes fixed on the night sky. His movements spoke of elegance and control. I’d encountered many people with breeding before, but his took on the air of arrogance and self-assuredness of someone used to getting what he wanted when he wanted it.
I only realized I’d been holding my breath when my lungs protested. I exhaled. My heart sputtered and restarted with a vengeance. Luka tore his gaze away from the stars and settled it on me. I’d expected pitch-black irises, like the other Night Students, but blue ice stared back at me.
“Human,” he whispered.
He reached out, and with a finger, followed an invisible trail down my cheek. I stiffened. His touch, cooler than Demitri’s, caused warm sparks to blossom on my face. He lifted his finger to his lips and licked its tip. He might as well have licked me from the way my body shivered.
Luka’s curious gaze held mine. “Leave us,” he said, but not to me.
“But—” Calixta protested like a spoiled child.
He spoke in a language I hadn’t heard before, remaining calm yet firm. The words had a rolling cadence I couldn’t quite follow, like rumbling thunder in the distance. They contained a harsh sensuality. The consonants were hard and the vowels were long and lilting.
Footsteps retreated behind me.
Luka reached out again.
It took me a minute to realize he wanted to help me up. I hesitated. He smiled. I smiled back timidly and took his hand, completely dazzled. Even with my uniform soaked from melted snow, I didn’t feel cold—all my attention was on him and the way his callused hand felt on mine. Without moving much from his seated position, he helped me stand.
“What’s your name?” he asked. He had a voice like a familiar lullaby. It filled my heart to the brim with comfort.
I swallowed and tried to stop gawking. “Phoenix.”
“The bird that rose from the ashes.” Luka bent his head and kissed the back of my hand. “It’s a pleasure meeting you.”
My cheeks warmed. My head reeled, not knowing what to think. I couldn’t understand why I felt drawn to him. And the strange connection frightened me.
From behind, someone gripped my arms and yanked me away before I could sort out the feelings Luka inspired in me. I found myself behind a towering figure yet again. Recognizing the blue-black silk for hair tied at the nape, relief washed over me. Calixta hadn’t come back to finish me off.
Demitri’s large hand wrapped around my wrist. Unlike the night before, no calm existed in his demeanor. He trembled like a junky in need of a fix. The coiled power in his tense muscles vibrated into me.
“What are you doing here?” Demitri asked.
I didn’t know he’d spoken to me until I saw his expressionless profile. I sighed.
“Phoenix.”
I flinched. The ruthless way he said my name punched all the air out of me. “You owe me answers,” I said with as much bravado as I could muster.
“I owe you nothing.” He glared. “In fact, you owe me your life.”
“I don’t think so.”
Ignoring my indignation, he faced Luka, who’d remained seated on the bench during my exchange with Demitri. “Why is she with you, Luka?”
“I wasn’t going to taste her, if that’s what you’re implying,” Luka said. “Although, she is simply delicious. I wouldn’t mind if you left us alone.”
There it was again. Taste. The word that kept coming up between these Night Students and I was connected to it in an increasingly uncomfortable way. To taste meant to sample, but what? My flesh? They had to be joking because the alternative wasn’t funny.
“The sins of the father …” Demitri left his sentence unfinished.
Luka’s smile shifted into a snarl. “Obey my command.” His chin lifted. “Kneel.”
Demitri’s stance went rigid. His grip tightened around my wrist.
Okay, weird just got weirder. Why would Luka want Demitri to kneel before him? I thought back to Eli and the others bowing to Demitri when he questioned them, but they didn’t kneel. Seriously? Were they all living on a different planet or something?
“Kneel.” Luka’s detestable smirk made his features sinister rather than angelic. The real Lucifer: a fallen angel.
Without letting go of my wrist, Demitri knelt down on one knee and bowed his head, his free hand flat at the center of his chest. “Your command has been obeyed,” he said formally.
Luka nodded once.
Demitri stood up and pulled me toward the school without telling me where we were going. Not having the time to thank Luka for saving me from Calixta, I risked a glance back. Luka smiled at me. His smile spoke of whispers, secrets, and promises to be shared on a later date.
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When Kate Evangelista was told she had a knack for writing stories, she did the next best thing: entered medical school. After realizing she wasn’t going to be the next Doogie Howser, M.D., Kate wandered into the Literature department of her university and never looked back. Today, she is in possession of a piece of paper that says to the world she owns a Literature degree. To make matters worse, she took Master’s courses in creative writing. In the end, she realized to be a writer, none of what she had mattered. What really mattered? Writing. Plain and simple, honest to God, sitting in front of her computer, writing. Today, she has four completed Young Adult novels.
sheisnoelle.bandcamp.com
Sometimes, it’s not about waiting for life to offer you what it can.
Sometimes, it’s about taking what you have and doing what you can.
And then taking it further than you expected.
There are a lot of people who deserve thank yous for this and as much as I would like to list you all down, I might probably run out of space — or worse, I might forget someone and I can’t have that.
So to my lovelies, to my friends, to my family and all of you who have been waiting for something big to happen — this is one of the small things that make up that big thing. Thank you. I hope you enjoy the songs.
*Individual tracks will be downloadable at your price of choice (and yes, 0.00 USD counts as a price) midnight of 16 April 2012. The idea of getting paid for my music is great, but I -want- people to have the opportunity to enjoy my music.
I originally wrote this song for guitar back in 2006, even though I’m not exactly well-versed in that particular instrument. But as the years have gone by, I found that the more that I thought about how C&N would sound best… or, I suppose you could say, how it could sound “truest” to the way it is in my heart, I started to think that maybe… since it’s a song that speaks for me, it would be better if I could play it on the instrument that I know and can express myself through best.
This version was recorded at home, still clearly in it’s draft stages, but I’m rather proud of how it’s come out.
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Coffee & Nonsense
Music & Lyrics: Noelle Pico
how are we doing tonight?
won’t you tell me how it’s been?
your eyes have a story again
so why don’t you begin;
let’s sit back and get comfy,
times like these are far-between and few;
yes i want to hear all about it (oh, all about it)
over a cup of coffee for two;
and the road is filled outside (outside)
the night is soothing, oh, soothing to my mind
guess i’ve got a lot to contemplate now,
but maybe it’s better if we don’t make sense inside;
it’s okay to wish for things… right?
to brood a little over dreams that are worthwhile;
i shield my eyes and think quiet (quiet),
i want to speak up, but i can’t begin to look in your eyes;
and the road is filled outside (outside)
tonight is soothing, oh, soothing to my mind
yes, i’ve got a lot to contemplate now
and maybe it’s better if we don’t make sense inside;
i never did like drinking coffee,
it always puts me straight to sleep,
i guess i always believed
that you’d be here to drink it up for me;
and the road is filled outside
the night is soothing, oh, soothing to my mind
you’re something i contemplate on
but maybe it’s better, if things don’t make sense inside
Source: SoundCloud / sheisnoelle
#thisismylife How I spent yesterday; in pictures.
[cover] the eraserhead’s “with a smile”
I spent the most amazing day at DLSU’s #ArtofCosplay yesterday all dolled up in an outfit to pay tribute to NANA’s Serizawa Reira. No pictures just yet — cosplaying is just like performing on stage so I wasn’t able to pull out my iPod to do a bunch of selcas. My group was assigned an official photographer though, so as soon as those go up on the event’s official webpage I’ll share them up here (oh geez, I hope I looked good).
But I’ll reserve another post for that day. Today, I’m back in the workshop with something new to share with you guys. This is my second take of this song while airplanes arc in the sky above my house and little kids play hide-and-seek as best as they can outside in broad daylight.
February tends to be the awkward month in the whole bunch — it goes by quick and yet manages to pack so much of a punch that you wonder where the time went. In places that have more seasons than the country I live in, it’s still wintertime, though spring is just a little over a month away.
I can imagine that the wait for warmth can be a bit nerve-wracking and maybe that’s why over the last couple of days, myself and some of my friends have felt the need to reestablish ties with each other all over again; clasp virtual or physical hands in each other’s to say: Hey, not going anywhere. Will just be right here, okay?
I wanted to share this particular take — awkward pauses and all — so that we can pretend that you just came over to my place to hang out with me while I rest my aching feet from yesterday’s event, my fingers curled over Rufio’s keys.
I’ve no one to spend Valentine’s Day with — not in the traditional sense, but that’s okay. Today isn’t just a day for couples the way love isn’t just for people who are in love.
So good morning, good afternoon, good evening to wherever you are. It’s a pleasure for me to share my second song of the year with all of you.
—N.
Source: SoundCloud / sheisnoelle
[cover] vertical horizon’s “sunrays and saturdays”;
Sometimes, I get really nervous when I’ve had possibly too much time away from a place. It’s usually because when I come back, I’m not entirely sure where to put myself.
It kind of reminds me of how it was when I still did the handful of lives I did before. The location is the same, you have your designated cheering squad scattered around the room — but there are a few unfamiliar faces in the crowd.
That element of “newness”… that can be a little nervewracking.
(Okay fine, a lot. ;p)
That seems a bit silly when we consider that this space is supposed to be my little slice of the Internet, but I think that sometimes it’s only human to want to get a feel of things. So. Hello, let me reintroduce myself:
My name is Noelle. My friends call me Noey. I love to sing.
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I usually ramble about the covers I do in conjunction with people in my life and things that go on in my life. This is because each song that I pick up and learn usually resonates with me and my thoughts and certain events that happen.
But sometimes songs “get” to us not because the situation is exactly the same. Sometimes, it’s because something in the song speaks to us of where we are now.
Vertical Horizon’s “Sunrays and Saturdays” is a song about two people going their separate ways. They were in love, but they aren’t anymore. Or at least, not the way that they thought they ought to be. But it’s not just about: “Hi, I love you, goodbye now.”
It’s more: ”Things didn’t turn out the way we both wanted it to, but that doesn’t change the fact that love was there and still is, and that’s perfectly okay at the end of the day.”
And also, it’s… I suppose it’s also about how while starting fresh is really scary and not always easy, it is vital that you learn to to trust that everything is going to be okay.
Because it will.
All you need is a little faith, enough courage to ask for hugs when you really need them, and all the good things that will remind you to you smile.












